Can I Be...

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Was listening to a Scott Stapp
song the other day...
picked up a pen...
and this came out.

Not sure when I wrote this.


I really like it!

Can I Be...

Can I be an island

A self sustaining life

Running on cylinders --- full

Throttled to the max

Can I be that island

Without strife

Tensions within me --- pull

As I try my best to relax

Can I be more

Than an ocean filled with doubt

Surrounding my island --- treasure

A pirates creed

Can I be that ocean

Water's clear water's without

Skillfully maneuvering --- taking measure

Fruit-filled limbs only

Life beyond the seed

Can I be a sun

Refreshing yellow glow

Leaving behind shapes --- a stillness

Shadows revealing a tale

Can I be that sun

A brightness  a warmth  a show

Caressing your emotions --- a willingness

To embrace my rays

They never fail

Can I be a tick in time

Just listen to that click

As your heart moves from 1 to --- 2

Such safety is found inside

Can I be that tick in time

You are the candle I am the wick

My strength & love flows & believes --- in you

That time stands still as 1 & 2

You & I

Colide

Can I be your vision

Can I be your season

Can I be your present

Can I be your song

Can I be your future

Can I be...

HSH

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Words from the attic continues...


Love this one!
For the life of me I can't remember when it was born, but...
whenever I read this fucker...
I really do... feel I'm home!


I always wanna be those lyrics...
dont'choo!!

HSH

Have you ever seen the dark side of the moon

        Illuminate inside of you

        A glorious glow of unearthly dew

Have you ever been the lyrics inside the tune...

Have you ever wondered why you're here alone

        While the outside world communicates

        As your PC screen anxiously awaits

Have you ever been the joy

When they hear the cell ringtone...

Have you ever had a day in your life last a year

        Through morning... noon... and night

        24 hours through 12 months

        Within a beam of soothing light

Have you ever been the salt

Within the drop of a joyful tear...


Have you ever loved something... someone

With all your heart

        Thinking to yourself the whole time

        If they knew

        Were the skies in their eyes

        The very same brilliant blue

Have you ever been the winner of the race

Even before the start...

Have you ever felt perfection caress your face

        Her glance... her hands... her lips...

        A brave new world experienced... fingertips

Have you ever known that you were home

Light years before you ever arrived...

At that place...

Home Sweet Home

Such A Great Day

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More words from the attic.


Was introduced to someone years back, and after an 8 hour first date we became amazingly close... for a short while. As we were both going through some emotional stress.


And then eventually went our separate ways but always knowing that we were both just a text or call away.


Wow!





Such A Great Day

Do you know why

Today is going to be such a great day

Today is going to be such a great day because

I woke up this morning even before

The alarm clock had a chance to assault me

My eyes opened wide

Full of life

Just grinning ear to ear

Consumed with the prospect

Of every conceivable possibility

My eyes would see

Great because today

May be the day that I fall in love

Could this life really emulate such a scene

Pulled from a Hollywood script

Never will I give up hope

For the day has ensured my vocal joy

Never again will I leave behind

An opportunity by being frightened 

Or tight-lipped

Great because today may be the day

That I get to ease someone's suffering

In some way

A helping hand... simple advice

Giving up loose change

Today I may surprise someone

So completely with my offering

That they become so overwhelmed

With gratitude

That they simply have nothing to say

Complete loss of their vocal range

Today will be such a great day

Unlike no other

Because today was the day

That I actually understood

What it really means to be a friend

How could it be

That after all these years of living

No lifelong friendship

Has ever given me such insights

That in such a short time

To teach my mind to re-explore it's own values

Re-igniting a roaring river of emotions

That I know will never end

If never do we meet face to face again

Somehow that really doesn't matter

The happiness and joy you've given me today

Via electronic waves will last a lifetime

My smile may never fade away

You my dear Susan will never become old hat

Without a doubt in my mind

Truly so much more than just a woman

More than even you realize... so much more

It's because of you... that this will be

Such a great day...

Mistakes

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Here's some more "woe is me" words from the attic. These words must have found there way onto the page shortly after we split but before the papers were signed.


Alittle sappy... bit I kind'a like it!

Mistakes

I'm Waiting

I'm waiting for the tides to turn

For a change in the rivers course

I'm waiting to see if I've finally learned

How to put a love above all... instead of myself

That's the pain I now bare upon my cross...

I'm wanting

I'm wanting time to somehow be reversed

A machine to step into

I'm wanting the bubble I'm living in to burst

Now that I've seen

What's the most important thing not...
In my life

Which I now know is you...

I'm wishing

I'm wishing my days away

But without the lamp to rub

Can a wish ever be fulfilled

I'm wishing you could see within my mind

It always seems to know exactly what to say

But alas... you can't

Thus leaving such awkward verse

Once again...

The tides have all been stilled...

I know

I now know the secret to my success was you

The driving force behind the man

I now know after time apart

I finally have a clue

That a husband must adore his wife

And put her above all

It's taken me all this time

To finally understand...

Hugs and kisses... cuddling in the dark

Are the only things I should have shown

Instead I left you lonely nights & broken hearts

And now... silly lovesick poems...

This confusing process has unveiled a truth

A deep seated thought

The final clue

I've come to realize

The reason behind my heartache

It comes from the endless hours

Inside my isolation booth... silent talk

The realization that I may never hold hands

Or be able to stare into those eyes again

Lost...

May be the chance... to grow old... with you...

Sorry will never be enough

Forever My Wife

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Still clearing out the attic of words!

Some of the things I've come across

have made me laugh

some brought tears

while others sucked so bad I just

crumbled it up and tossed it

in the trash... LoL

Good thing for me you can't

crumble up a blog post!

I can't really remember exactly

when I wrote this,

but I'm betting it wasn't too long after

we officially signed the papers

and all hope of reuniting,

at least in my eyes... was gone.

Woe is me... lol

But as silly as it may seem to read this sort of dribble... at the time when words such as these leave my head and spill upon whatever tablet, page or napkin my pencil finds... it's just so exhilarating... in an "Oh thank goodness I got that shit outta my fuckin' head" sort'a way... LoL

So without further ado... my heart...

poured upon the page... for you!

Forever My Wife

Suddenly all you have is gone

 For better or for worse are now words forgotten

At times it seems you were doing the right thing

 Then at times it seems I'm lost in life

  Safe and warm... but still looking for my home...

Unaware of our surroundings

 Blind to the fact that our heartbeats were changing

  Not always in sync... not always the same

Until finally we find ourselves apart

 An unnecessary struggle from day to day

  Does it really matter now who is to blame...

My new life goes on

 Like a newborn child I approach each dawn

Relearning ideas that I've had for years

 Trying to find myself all over again

  Can I really ever truly belong...

But beneath the surface of every morning

 Is a riding force that's hiding

  Putting on a charade

Allowing me my newfound freedom

 While still pulling back on the reins

  Perhaps through frustration and haste

   A life altering mistake was made...

Can things ever be the same... I don't know

 How can two people fall in love

  Then take for granted

   What some other's may never find...

I'm troubled still... but continue a new

 I hope my confusion transforms into life

The journey ahead will be a challenge

 Nothing short of an emotional roller coaster

  But through the good to come... and even the bad

   Down deep within my heart

    I know you will always and forever be my wife...

30 Years

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I wrote this for my friends
Joey & Carmen (Delia)
for their 2015 Christmas gathering.
Which also happened to be their 30th
year together as a couple.

Yes... I actually wore a suit.
And as I arrived through the hall doors,
Joey promptly walked up to greet me
and...
straighten my fuckin' tie... LoL

It was a really fun time as the night ended with the entire room encircling the family... singing along to an emotional Billy Joel... "Sing us a song you're the piano man...
Sing us a song tonight.
Well we're all in the mood for a melody...
And you got us feelin' alright!"

--- The pink is Delia talking ---
--- The blue is Joey talking ---
--- The black is both talking ---

30 Years

To my dearest Joseph... you are my husband

To my dearest Delia... you are my wife

Together we've lived... together we've loved

Together we've given each other...

Such a wonderful life

Just look at us now surrounded by family...

embraced by friends

We're 30 years now from the start

Can either one of us have ever envisioned

Such fulfillment

Our hearts are warmly melting

From an abundance of love

In God we trust... that it never ends

I have to say Delia...

I never thought I would ever find true direction

and consoling comfort

And within you my Joseph...

I have found my protector... my warmth

Only one word... one emotion...

Can ever tell the tale of us...

and that is of course... triumphant

30 years

Yes 30 wonderful years

Have brought us to this point

We've had our hands full at times

Yes but somehow we've always managed

to find those rhymes

Those rhymes just beyond our sight

I can honestly say my Joseph

And I can honestly say my Delia

That having you...

And also you...

In my life has been such a miracle...

Simply a blessing

And without hesitation I say to you

That every second together you have truly been

My shinning star... my inner strength

Always and forever... my guiding light...

I love you

Joey Marsh... The Nucleus

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Found a bunch of things I wrote over the years and just wanted to post a few.
This one here, I wrote for a friends 40th surprise birthday back in 2001.
We're still friends after so many years.
And if I'm not mistaken, the last time we hungout was after playing golf this past summer 2016. We drank tons of sangria while THE WHO's Quadrophenia was
filling up the entire restaurant...
too fuckin' cool!

Joey Marsh... The Nucleus

From the beginning it's been this way

And from the beginning it's been our pleasure

To hangout with you from day to day

And gather up memories...

That we will always treasure

It's weird...

But somehow it seems that when you're there

That we're okay...

And a reassuring calmness appears

From stickball to Strat-o-matic to drinking beers

If Joey Marsh walked in...

Out the door went any fears

Somehow you have the ability to make us all feel safe

I can't explain it...

You represent where we all came from

And I know you don't even realize that it is this way

But just ask any one of us about these thoughts

And I'll guarantee that they would agree...

With what I say

40 years have now passed by

And friendships are still alive

While the nucleus that you are continues to glow

It's a proven fact that you'll soon witness...

When you arrive

As you walk through those doors

Watch our camaraderie grow

Believe me when I say that you are special in some way

And that I'm speaking here for us all

Be it just hanging out or on the field of play

You being here with us... softens any fall

Daltrey screams what Townshend creates...

"How many friends have I really got"

While Entwistle glances up at the Moon above

Their music has always helped us express our feelings

Enough for us to say to you...

That you truly do

Have all of our love

Happy birthday Joe

The kids are still... alright!

Love... all of us