Still clearing out the attic of words!
Some of the things I've come across
have made me laugh
some brought tears
while others sucked so bad I just
crumbled it up and tossed it
in the trash... LoL
Good thing for me you can't
crumble up a blog post!
I can't really remember exactly
when I wrote this,
but I'm betting it wasn't too long after
we officially signed the papers
and all hope of reuniting,
at least in my eyes... was gone.
Woe is me... lol
But as silly as it may seem to read this sort of dribble... at the time when words such as these leave my head and spill upon whatever tablet, page or napkin my pencil finds... it's just so exhilarating... in an "Oh thank goodness I got that shit outta my fuckin' head" sort'a way... LoL
So without further ado... my heart...
poured upon the page... for you!
Forever My Wife
Suddenly all you have is gone
For better or for worse are now words forgotten
At times it seems you were doing the right thing
Then at times it seems I'm lost in life
Safe and warm... but still looking for my home...
Unaware of our surroundings
Blind to the fact that our heartbeats were changing
Not always in sync... not always the same
Until finally we find ourselves apart
An unnecessary struggle from day to day
Does it really matter now who is to blame...
My new life goes on
Like a newborn child I approach each dawn
Relearning ideas that I've had for years
Trying to find myself all over again
Can I really ever truly belong...
But beneath the surface of every morning
Is a riding force that's hiding
Putting on a charade
Allowing me my newfound freedom
While still pulling back on the reins
Perhaps through frustration and haste
A life altering mistake was made...
Can things ever be the same... I don't know
How can two people fall in love
Then take for granted
What some other's may never find...
I'm troubled still... but continue a new
I hope my confusion transforms into life
The journey ahead will be a challenge
Nothing short of an emotional roller coaster
But through the good to come... and even the bad
Down deep within my heart