how I felt that day
as I stood there in my living room
screaming at the television
while waiting for the phone to ring
after just hanging it up from talking
with my ex-wife Lynn
and reassuring her that everything was okay
just minutes before the second plane...
while she was at work right across the street
from the Trade Center
as I stood there in my living room
screaming at the television
while waiting for the phone to ring
after just hanging it up from talking
with my ex-wife Lynn
and reassuring her that everything was okay
just minutes before the second plane...
while she was at work right across the street
from the Trade Center
DCCCCXI
(nine-hundred eleven)
The skies ablaze with hatred
A billowing horror
I'm helpless
Telephone calls that couldn't be made
Frozen... timeless ticks
Life is fading away
I'm helpless
Ten million thoughts... pure insanity
Standing there in disbelief
Unable to reach out... unable to save
I'm helpless
I've just lost my heart
Followed by my soul
Moments ever ingrained
Into all I have left
A meaningless mass... flesh 'n bone
I'm helpless
Comes a quiet within confusion
Concealing my anger... a numbing pain
Hours pass... A dormant phone
Scrolling words now forever
Consume my life
Recording a history not deserved
I'm helpless
There will never be another tomorrow
As long as I can see today
And today will last my lifetime
I'm afraid tomorrow's sun has been lost
Eternal darkness calls
I'm helpless
I'm helpless
I feel so helpless as I watch
Still...
Remembering our friends!
Jimmy Ladley
John McAvoy
Clement Fumando
Still...
Remembering our friends!
Jimmy Ladley
John McAvoy
Clement Fumando
All in all...
I do feel as though
I was a very lucky
human being on that day!
First...
because my ex-wife Lynn
had a horrifying experience
of walking over human remains
and unimaginable destruction
on her way towards safety... but...
she was alive!!
She was alive!
And even though we are
no longer together...
I actually have a few heartfelt
tears crawling down my cheeks
at this very moment some 13 years
later because of that fact.
That she was mentally strong
enough to save herself!
It seems...
that it's going to be...
one of those... days folks!
My salted drops
are just overflowing with...
frustration
happiness
sadness
selfishness
hatred
self pity
and last but not least
thankfulness!
And second...
because I could have just as easily
been inside one those buildings
on that very day just as I was
on so many other occasions...
but for some reason...
on her way towards safety... but...
she was alive!!
She was alive!
And even though we are
no longer together...
I actually have a few heartfelt
tears crawling down my cheeks
at this very moment some 13 years
later because of that fact.
That she was mentally strong
enough to save herself!
It seems...
that it's going to be...
one of those... days folks!
My salted drops
are just overflowing with...
frustration
happiness
sadness
selfishness
hatred
self pity
and last but not least
thankfulness!
And second...
because I could have just as easily
been inside one those buildings
on that very day just as I was
on so many other occasions...
but for some reason...
I wasn't!
Unbelievably,
Unbelievably,
I saved a few of the daily
visitor passes
from some of the times
I was at the Trade Center that year.
Don't know why I saved them?
They began issuing these after the
1993 bombing of the Towers.
I can't remember when
1993 bombing of the Towers.
I can't remember when
the last time I was there
for a service call...
or how close I actually came,
to being there that day
but here are some of the passes
I saved.
And now, I don't give a shit
if it's only 8 o'clock in the morning...
I'm pouring myself an ice cold glass
of sangria on my day off!
Cheers muthafucka's... cheers!
And now, I don't give a shit
if it's only 8 o'clock in the morning...
I'm pouring myself an ice cold glass
of sangria on my day off!
Cheers muthafucka's... cheers!
Just punch your way through this day...
and try your best
to get back
to living!!!
I'm gonna begin my day with a
song that always makes me smile.
Full Circle
by Aerosmith
I'm gonna begin my day with a
song that always makes me smile.
Full Circle
by Aerosmith
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